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i'd REALLY appreciate it...
i need as many votes as possible to make it to the next round in this model search.
it's for MODELS OF THE RUNWAY, a show about the models behind PROJECT RUNWAY.
i really would love this opportunity...i don't care how lame it sounds.
i love the fashion industry & modeling as an art form.
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| my mom made some delicious rigatoni last night, but she put a bunch of strips of parsley in it.
basically, the parsley tastes like grass. i told her she should have put basil in it...
i think i'm going to go eat some now though.
well, after this entry is written.
today i went to bed at like 4:45am because i stayed up on the computer.
i'm not at home a lot lately and when i am, i like to just chill in my room.
anyway...apparently that was a mistake because it caused me to sleep well into the afternoon.
that right there started a ridiculous fight with my parents and i.
my mom woke me up by banging on my door and basically yelling for me to come out.
i didn't even have to work or anything, but my mom said there were THINGS i needed to do.
things that didn't necessarily need to be done today, but according to her they did.
like...me calling the court house in portland to tell them i couldn't go to jury selection on april 6th...
even though i want to go, but my current lack of transportation is the problem.
anyway, the guy said i have to write a letter and send it a.s.a.p....so i have to do that.
so i'm sure i'll be staying up for a long time again tonight.
tomorrow i work 4-8pm...a stupid little four hour shift. oh well, i guess i'll take what i can get.
then i don't have to work until saturday...so i have to find a way to get to auburn.
not being able to drive is SOOOO SUCKY.
it would be different if i lived in a city where there were subway stations & an abundance of buses.
at least the weather has been pretty springy lately...
pleeeeeeeeeeeease no more big snows. only little snows that melt away that day, or the next day.
i feel like it's not realistic to wish for NO more snow at all...
i remember lots of winters that went well into april. perhaps even may? EW.
danielle deleted her muhfuckin' facebook. WTF?
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Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
a lot of times.
What were you doing at 10:30 last night ?
hanging out in my bedroom.
Are you listening to music right now?
yeah, young jeezy & kanyeezy...put on.
What were you doing at 7:00am this morning?
sleeping.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
not especially.
What mood are you in right now?
zombie mood. i could sleep, but i don't really want to.
Is your room ever clean?
not to my mother's standards.
Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
EVERY single minute? hmm....haha.
Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
jordan.
Are you sarcastic?
yes, but not constantly.
What if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
it would be a really sexy kid.
Do you think you can last for an hour without talking?
yeah, sure.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yeah.
Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them?
not that i recall.
Would you be shocked if your last ex said they hated you?
i wouldn't be shocked...i'd just wonder why.
What’s something you’re excited about right now?
everything.
Do you think dane cook is funny?
yeah, he's not bad.
What are you doing tomorrow?
i don't know! chillin' out!
most likely going back to auburn.
What does your last text message in your inbox say?
i have no idea...something from kelly i think. i'm too lazy to go check.
How is your heart lately?
healthy, i hope.
What did you eat last?
a heath klondike bar.
Last hug?
yesterday evening in my driveway.
What should you be doing right now?
sleeping, i guess?
Goodbye or hello?
hello.
What was the best thing that happened today?
nothing. hahaha.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
i don't think so.
Do you have a cat that stares and meows at you often?
haha, yep.
Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
friends.
Do you drop your phone a lot?
no.
Is there someone you particularly miss?
yeah! i tend to always miss jordan when i'm away from him.
i'm a geek, i know...
Anywhere you'd rather be right now?
with him...haha. somewhere warm please?
What are you listening to currently?
lil wayne.
Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
night showers feel awesome...especially when you crawl into bed all clean...but then again, morning showers wake you up.
Do you normally sleep with clothes on?
yeah, very little.
Do you always answer your phone?
no.
Who pissed you off today?
nobody.
Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
nope.
What's currently bothering you?
this on-coming cold thing.
Everything happens for a reason?
not EVERYTHING.
Have you ever liked anyone on your top friends?
derrrr.
What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
strawberry jam, apple jelly, strawberry-rhubarb.
Last time you laughed at something stupid?
i'm constantly doing that...
What time did you wake up this morning?
9.
Best thing about winter?
it makes summer even better.
What month is your birthday in?
august!
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If the last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them?
absolutely.
i know it's true.
What are you currently hearing?
"angel bomb" by no knife
Have a best friend?
yeah :)
Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
i've already done that before...and then some.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
not at all.
What's with you and the last person you kissed?
we's be lovin' eachothuh.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
word.
What time did you wake up this morning?
11:45ish...but then i fell back asleep for about an hour.
What's on your bed right now?
basket of clothes + clothes.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
i'm sure of it.
Will you cry at your high school graduation?
i graduated in 2002, and no.
Are you wearing any clothes that don’t belong to you?
nope.
Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hated?
not really, no.
Are you happy with the way life is going?
partially.
What made your day today?
nothing really, unfortunately.
Are you keeping a secret right now?
sort of.
Is there anyone you want to come see you?
yes, please.
What do you need right now?
an answer to my question.
Have you ever had a serious conversation with your dad?
yup.
Do you miss anyone?
every time we are apart.
What are you thinking about right now?
how i am already tired and i've only been up for about 12 hours.
How many cell phones have you had in your life?
four, i believe.
When was the last time you were told you were cute?
last week.
Any summer plans for 2009?
amazing fun with amazing people and lots of outdoor stuff, especially ocean time.
Who's thinking about you right now?
i'm not sure.
Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yes.
Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
that was my sister...i love her!
When is the last time you felt angry?
yesterday...my mom pissed me off.
Do you like being called cute or sexy or hot or beautiful?
yes.
Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
it could happen.
How important is love in your life?
very important.
What is your favorite thing about being sick?
being able to laze around and/or sleep and get sympathy...haha.
What body part aches you the most right now?
lower back.
What is your greatest addiction?
weed/music/food/jordan.
What do you think of the second person on your top?
pauly shore! haha he needs to lose weight.
aaaand he's the cutest.
Have you ever cried from being too mad?
definitely.
Did you cry today?
got a little teary eyed, but that was it.
Have you held hands with anyone lately?
not since thursday or friday.
Where will you be two hours from now?
in my bed.
Can you make yourself sneeze?
kind of, yeah...but i never do it.
What are you stressed out about?
i don't wanna talk about it here...
How many windows are open on your computer?
two.
Think of the person you told "I love you too" last, did you mean it?
yes.
Are your nails painted?
yes...but they are VERY chipped and the colour is barely even there.
Who was the last person to text you?
bethy.
How old do you look?
about 18.
Is the last person you kissed your bestfriend?
yes.
Did you go outside for more then 30 minutes today?
no. brrr!
Have you kissed anyone whose name starts with R?
i don't think so.
Can you whistle?
yeah, but i suck at it.
i used to be better before i had braces.
What are you wearing?
black vs yoga pants, black tank top, purple hoodie with silver nike logo & swoosh, panties, socks.
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
only with jordan.
i don't like to talk on the phone much, i like to text.
Are you a loud person?
hahha, a lot of the time.
Could you see yourself with someone forever?
yes :)
When was the last time you had starbucks?
tuesday. i love caramel apple spice!
Who was the last person that left you a comment?
on myspace? kaylee.
Do you sleep with the TV on?
no, i don't even have a tv in my room anymore.
Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
yeah, but i would rather not.
What did you do today?
worked from 2-7, then hung out with danielle.
Do you think you're old?
no.
How fast can you type?
pretty fast...i don't know the wpm or anything though.
Do you knock on wood?
only if it's a wooden door.
Are you drinking anything right now?
not anymore.
Do you have good vision?
very!
Do you own a night light?
nope.
A movie you watched when you were little?
the land before time.
now i have it on dvd! haa.
What song's in your head right now?
i'm now listening to "ten million years" by black lab.
Last time you told someone you loved them?
about 5 hours ago.
What color is your underwear?
green.
Do you watch Disney channel?
yeah, i still do sometimes.
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Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
well...josh was there, but he was in the other room and i doubt he was watchin'.
When you're walking, do you stop to drink?
hmm, i'll have to check.
Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
for a lot of things, yeah.
i guess it depends on the situation.
Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
yeah...that seems like a common thing.
Ever snuck out of your house?
yes.
Kill or Be killed?
nahhh.
Break someone’s heart or have your heart broken?
whatevz.
What are you doing tonight?
herb & sleep.
What was the last thing you received in the mail?
a letter from the secretary of state about my license.
Do you like someone right this second?
word!
Would you ever get a tattoo?
i would, but i have not decided what to get yet.
What was the last thing you ate?
pizza.
Are you a morning person or a night person?
NIGHT--most of the time.
Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion?
yes.
What would you do if you opened up your front door to a dead body?
i would most likely slam the door. then call the police?
Do you like to spend time with people?
definitely...
but a girl's gotta have some alone time too.
Are you hungry?
usually...
but right now i'm good.
i had a lot of mushroom/bacon pizza & cheesy bread earlier.
Are you a forgiving person?
mostly, yeah.
When was the last time you did the dishes?
pshh, i dunno.
Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
no.
Do you want a relationship right now?
yes, i am in one.
What are you about to do?
finish this bowl & go to bed.
Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
no...only celebrity death rumours.
If you could be a superhero what would you want to do?
i want the ability to do basically anything...like sabrina the teenage witch,
but jessica the young lady superhero instead.
Your name plus "ness"?
jessica quickness.
Three feelings at the moment?
high, tired, lonely.
Done anything you regret so far in life?
not really, no.
any "bad choices" i made ended up working out.
you live...you learn.
right alanis?
hahahaha.
Are you listening to anything?
"hands on fire" ..the stills
Where are you right now?
my bedroom in topsham.
What are you scared of?
being unhappy.
Last movie you watched?
inside man.
Last song you sang out loud?
i can't recall.
Are you thinking of someone right now?
jordan
Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
danielle
Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
an mp3 posted on a blog.
Have you changed much this year?
i'm constantly changing...
i'm not sure exactly how much went down this year, but probably a lot.
Where was the last place you went besides where you are?
domino's.
Do you speak any other language?
some french.
Do you dress for style or comfort?
definitely both, probably more for style but i wouldn't wear something ridiculously uncomfortable.
Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
haha nope, never been to mexico.
What's the craziest thing you've done?
well, what do you consider CRAZY?
Favorite color(s)?
green, purple, teal/aqua/turquoise.
What is your favorite Nickelback song?
ummm...what?
What are you looking forward to this summer?
THE BEACH!
Last time you smiled?
earlier, when i was eating pizza and listening to music with danielle.
If you could have anything in the world, what would you want?
oh, can i contemplate that?
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| mom and dad are being stupid right now,
(for reasons unknown)...
but last night & this morning was so good.
it was a good "christmas eve-eve"(haha) present to just have him with me.
he bought me a new 'puter mouse...one of those sweet cordless optical ones.
now i no longer have to use the super shitty one that i had before. woo!
i pretty much can't wait to see him again. i feel warm inside.
today is my day off & now i have nothing to do.
beth isn't feeling well, plus she has to go to portland with her mom & sister at 5pm.
i texted her after jordan left to see if she wanted to chill for like two hours
& smoke and go to walmart so i can finish my christmas shopping, but she never replied.
i guess i'm going to have to buy the rest of my gift's at dick's tomorrow when i work.
but seriously, i can't buy my sister anything there...
i wanted to get her something kinda specific, but i'd have to get to freeport.
hmmm, i wonder if there is anyone out there i could convince to bring me.
i'll have to reference my contacts list on my cell! WORD.
aww man, i love sleeping next to jordan.
it's definitely high on my list of awesome things to do.
tomorrow i have to work 1-6:30pm.
for all those last minute gift givahz like myself!
i wanna wear curly ribbons in my hair like i used to when i was little.
soooo cute :)
ok, i really don't know what else to write about.
so i'll just hit post.
but i will say this--
i am happy. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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| halloween is friday.
i definitely feel like carving a pumpkin at some point.
what should i do for a costume? hmm.
right now i'm chilling in my bedroom, listening to my itunes and smoking.
i miss everyone at prattville. especially madison & pauly shore. hehe!
i saw that my parents bought wheat-something bagels & cream cheese.
score! i want to eat one tonight and one in the morning for breakfast.
i have to be at DSG at 8:45 in the morning...until 4pm. ughhh.
the suckiest part is the fact that when i get out, i'm probably going to have nothing to do.
jess can't come pick me up because of her daycare kids.
i'll probably end up stuck at home and pissed off at the threesome o' lameness.
some retard keeps calling my phone from a restricted number,
when i answer all i hear is some stupid moaning and someone saying they want to eat my pussy.
disgusting psycho?! or perhaps it's someone playing a stupid ass joke.
either way, it's really annoying and always happens in the middle of the night.
i am not a slut, so i do not wish to receive slut phone calls. thank you.
hahaha. new subject.
i really like rob's new homegirl, sarah. i've hung out with her a bit, she's fun.
she gave me a hemp necklace with blueish purpley glittery glass beads.
it reminds me of the cute pipe that the police took from me. r.i.p!
i should probably be in bed, but i haven't been on the computer in days...
but it sucks me in...especially the music listening part.
i need to go to hannaford after work tomorrow and get another box of color oops.
chances are, my mother will stop there after picking me up without me even asking her to.
the month of october flew by...but then again, all the months have been flying by.
2008 has been way too short, seriously. i don't even know where it went but i know i had fun.
two more months until it's an odd number year again. hmm...
i'm a retard, it probably means nothing.
for the rest of this week i'm going to have to remain calm and patient and happy.
wish me luck, y'all.
oh shit, election day & my court date is coming up one right after the other.
that's going to be a busy week...
my thoughts are spastic right now.
i feel like i should start christmas shopping for my family because i only get paid bi-weekly,
and i spend money like it's going out of style...i don't want to be the fuck up this holiday. haha!
i want to get my hair trimmed this week. i think i'm gonna see if i can make that happen.
my new purple nike sweatshirt that i bought at work is sooooo comfortable and fits perfectly.
i feel completely justified in spending forty dollars on it. it makes me happy...it's warm too.
there are more things that i want from work that i probably can't afford. GROSS.
danielle called me tonight but i didn't pick up because i get shitty reception at the house.
she probably was just trying to see if i am coming to her halloween party.
noooooooope.
sleeping in my own bed tonight is going to feel pretty good, i think.
the prattville couch-bed is a little lumpy...hehe.
i shouldn't be smoking in the house, but i'm doing it anyway.
shiiiiit, i love breakin' da rulez.
holy i need new jeans. GOOD new jeans. i'm not going to settle because it's important.
they have to fit right in every way, especially in the length and in the ass. haha.
somebody needs to take me shopping, pronto.
is anybody still reading this junk? i have no idea what i've been writing about for the past whatever minutes.
i watched dawn of the dead (the 2004 version) this weekend...it was pretty ridiculous.
i liked when they showed the zombie baby and it screamed.
UGH. my computer mouse is being so gay...i need to clean it with rubbing alcohol and a q-tip like jess said.
hopefully it works, because right now it takes a fight to move the cursor across the screen. mega gaytropolis. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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where did your last kiss take place?
in the back seat of an suv, right before i got dropped off.
who knows a secret or two about you?
the universe.
four words to explain why you last threw up?
too much cheap booze.
have you ever burned yourself?
by accident, yeah.
whats crazy to you?
uhh...the way my parents act?
favorite cuss word?
who even cares?
whos probably talking a load of crap about you?
all the citizens.
who is your hero?
i don't really have one.
would you ever want to be a supermodel?
yes.
who is the most experimental person you know?
myself, i guess.
do you tell white lies?
occassionally.
when is your next party?
someday when i get my own place again.
who do you want to be with right now?
best boy.
your motivation for tomorrow?
work.
do you know what you will wear tomorrow?
well, my work clothes and then probably pajamas unless i go out.
last thing you ate?
multi-grain cheerios.
do you ever go a few days without changing your underwear?
i have before unintenitionally, and it sucked.
do daddy long legs freak you out?
no, they're just gross and shouldn't touch me.
have you ever cleaned up someone elses vomit?
yes, disgusting.
do you kiss your pets on the mouth?
sometimes.
do you talk baby talk?
no.
do you watch court tv?
haha yeah! sometimes.
would you ever work in a retirement home?
ehh i dunno.
what did you do today?
hung out, went to walmart, smoked, ate pizza, played with baby pratt.
who were you with today?
jordan, josh, alicia, madison, jess, rob.
if you could fly, where would you go?
everywhere.
do you prefer boats or planes?
both are alright.
favorite food?
chicken, noodles, sushi.
what upcoming event are you waiting and ready for?
i have no clue.
do you get your nails done?
i never have tried those acrylic nails before...i've been to a nail salon once and got a manicure on my natural nails. it sucked.
what is the last thing you ordered at mcdonalds?
i dunno, probably a double cheeseburger (no onions) and some fries.
are you an emotional person?
i would be lying if i said no.
do you like your name?
it's pretty good.
do you have plans next weekend?
i still have some things to work out.
do you work?
yes.
do you dance naked in your room?
it's happened.
what are you listening to right now?
dj krush.
how long have you been a part of myspace?
since july 2004.
favorite place to be?
anywhere with my prefered company.
what are you wearing right now?
jeans, t-shirt, hoodie.
are your toes painted?
not yet.
does anyone hate you?
i don't know.
how many people do you fully trust?
a couple.
did you have fun doing this?
no.
are you thinking of someone right now?
i always will, if you mention it. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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one: Who are your last 4 texts from?
richard, richard, richard & david.
two: Where was your [myspace] default picture taken?
in my dining room.
three: What's your middle name?
nicole
four: Whats your current favorite color?
i have more than one, but lately i've been digging shades like royal purple.
five: Does your crush like you back?
i'm pretty sure.
six: What is your current mood?
kinda high, kinda tired.
seven: When is your birthday?
august 1st.
eight: What color shirt are you wearing?
i'm wearing a light gray tank under a white cable knit sweater.
nine: If you were going on a Reality TV show, which one would it be?
umm, the hills. i could be lauren's newest pal.
ten: Are you imagining anyone naked right now?
haha not currently, no!
eleven: Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?
nope.
twelve: Ever had a near death experience?
hmm not to my knowledge.
thirteen: Something you do a lot?
talk.
fourteen: Do you regret anything?
not really.
fifteen: Do you want to see somebody right now?
absolutely.
sixteen: how many piercings?
six.
seventeen: When was the last time you cried?
i don't remember...it must have been days and days ago.
eighteen: Where was the last place you traveled to?
nyc.
nineteen: Where is your mom?
in her bed, fast asleep.
twenty: What are you listening to?
the hum of my computer, the typing of my fingers.
twenty-one: American Pie or Superbad?
superbad.
twenty-two: What's your biggest fear?
ending up alone.
twenty-three: Where is your ex?
who knows?
twenty-four: Would you ever take one of your ex's back?
the only one i'm really still friends with is patrick.
he's pretty chill, but i don't know if i would go that far, hehe.
twenty-five: What did you do last night?
hung out by myself and did nothing.
twenty-six: What was the first thing you said this morning?
???
twenty-seven: Speak any other languages?
a bit of french.
twenty-eight: Whats your favorite smell?
my best friend.
twenty-nine: do you like to sleep naked?
from time to time.
thirty: Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
yes.
thirty-one: Do you like rain?
i like thunderstorms at night in the summer and sun showers.
sometimes a good heavy downpour can be fun.
but definitely not when it's cold out.
thirty-two: What are you thinking about right now?
i feel uncomfortable sitting in this chair and i'm contemplating just calling it a night.
thirty-three: What should you be doing right now?
i have no obligations but i probably should sleep.
thirty-four: Whats your favorite memory?
there are way too many great memories in my life so far to pick a fave.
thirty-five: last hug?
my mom, tonight.
thirty six: When was the last time you whispered?
early wendesday morning, i think.
thirty-seven: Who was the last person you yelled at?
umm i don't know? maybe my mom.
thirty-eight: Who have you been friends with longest?
myself.
thirty-nine: who is the last person you said i love you to?
mom.
forty: Who is the last person that made you smile?
dikk, when i was hanging out with him tonight. fun! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| i have absolutely no idea what is going on lately...or ever.
things have been crazy and of course i never know how to deal.
my mind is all over the place, yet still fixated on certain specifics.
thursday night was interesting to say the least...
pretty much leaving me confused as to whether i should feel hopeful or hopeless.
i'm still trying to remain optimistic and hoping that i'm not continually fooling myself.
dealing with the tri-force at home has been alright at times and shitty at others.
the sister was being a total ridiculous immature bitch today and boy that was fun.
a positive thing would be the fact that i got a job at dick's sporting goods the other day.
it's only going to be flexible part time for now...it could be 22 hours one week, 38 the next...flip FLOP.
i was told that there is a definite possibility that the position will become full time soon.
i had "orientation" on friday (which i will be getting paid for) and my first shift is on wednesday.
so yay...money is headed my way again. this time hopefully things work out.
oh yeah and i'm going to be working in the apparel section and most likely be cross trained in footwear.
so that works for me...i love clothing and shoes!
aww WORD, i can't wait for shopping.
i should definitely be in bed so i don't sleep until 4pm today...
so i can get up and eat and get ready for the day...
and hopefully i end up doing something that makes me happy.
pleeeeeease?
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